LadySnowBlack
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About Proof's death: When I say I went into a dark place, it feels like I literally crawled into a hole. There where days I'd sit around all day and take pills and try to numb myself. It was almost an excuse for me to take more pills, like I just lost Proof, so it's ok for me to take a couple of pills. I was spiralling out of control with my thoughts, with the drugs, with everything. When I would go into the studio, I kept trying to write songs about him. I think I might have wrote and recorded at least 5 or 6 songs about him. None of them came out the way I wanted them to, and all of them made me depressed. All of them made me go deeper into that hole... Nothing I wrote was good enough for him. Everything was like, self loathing. Did you ever take any personal responsibility for what happened to him? Yeah, I went through that kind of thing as well. I felt like "Well maybe if I would have been with him at the club that night... He knows I was trying to get him to chill out and stop going to the club so much". How much did you react to all the conflicting information that came out immediately following the incident? I got a bunch of conflicting stories, a bunch of conflicting things and none of them ever made sense to me. There were things that I"d heard that they were saying that Proof shot the dude first. It's so not his character to do that. There were other stories that matched what I knew Proof would have did. I had to go through the process in my head of like, regardless of what happened, it happened. It's not gonna bring him back. I don't know if I've accepted it is the right word but I'm dealing with it. Life for me will never be the same.
About Proof's death: When I say I went into a dark place, it feels like I literally crawled into a hole. There where days I'd sit around all day and take pills and try to numb myself. It was almost an excuse for me to take more pills, like I just lost Proof, so it's ok for me to take a couple of pills. I was spiralling out of control with my thoughts, with the drugs, with everything. When I would go into the studio, I kept trying to write songs about him. I think I might have wrote and recorded at least 5 or 6 songs about him. None of them came out the way I wanted them to, and all of them made me depressed. All of them made me go deeper into that hole... Nothing I wrote was good enough for him. Everything was like, self loathing. Did you ever take any personal responsibility for what happened to him? Yeah, I went through that kind of thing as well. I felt like "Well maybe if I would have been with him at the club that night... He knows I was trying to get him to chill out and stop going to the club so much". How much did you react to all the conflicting information that came out immediately following the incident? I got a bunch of conflicting stories, a bunch of conflicting things and none of them ever made sense to me. There were things that I"d heard that they were saying that Proof shot the dude first. It's so not his character to do that. There were other stories that matched what I knew Proof would have did. I had to go through the process in my head of like, regardless of what happened, it happened. It's not gonna bring him back. I don't know if I've accepted it is the right word but I'm dealing with it. Life for me will never be the same.